FEAR AMBITION

The stress level develops a mind set,

That makes you reach your pushing point but haven't met mines yet;

Faded, developing hatred, because them kids never stressed ish and they made it,

I wish to form a star but do not wish too be favorite,

All the expectations I hate it, fear for what I will not make it;

Supporters? I have plenty, but haven't met any, that can keep it a hunnit in telling me that business wouldn't fit me;

Is it a perfect set up, the kids that get let up, to believe if they keep pushing their dreams and goals will get met up; 

Well I'm fed up!

Sacrificing my perseverance and my honor, chasing dreams of a man without a father;

And cold shoulders to shady Mrs.

Nonsense in the sense of lady kisses;

Not feeling the disses, so i sit with my mind geek.

Depressing sober thoughts from being hi all week;

The words I bleep...educate the masters, fascinating pastors, standing up for the bastards;

My passwords are memories, typing history causing thoughts visually;

Despite the likes I love the loves and far above, what they think it isn't what it does;

The fact I do things just because, I hate not swimming in mental floods;

I hate my worlds cause of its hoods, and hate the hate below above, what they think and know it does;

Visionary? I barely have a vision,

I lack confidence because I fear my ambition;

VENTING

YEA!...I'M FROM WHERE, THE FROM HERE,
THE THINGS THAT I DONE THERE..
MADE ME DUMB WITH DUMB FEAR OF WHAT I MAY COME NEAR;
YEA!..I DID WHAT I DONE LAST YEAR, WHEN I WAS BEYOND PAST FEAR...THAT WAS A GOOD DAMN YEAR;
BUT...WE ALL GOT OUR EXCLUSIVE OPINIONS,WE STUPID WITH OUR MENTAL DETENTIONS,
BUT WHAT IS THOUGHT WITHOUT THOUGHT, STARTERS WITHOUT START, NIGHT BEATS WITHOUT HEARTS AND FAR FROM THE DARK;
WITTY AS WITTY...ASKING THE LORD TO FORGIVE ME,
FOR TRICKING THESE LOVELY MARYS
AND EATING APPLES AND BERRIES;
WHICH HAVE ME THINKING TO MUCH...AND DREAMING,
I KNEW I DIDNT LEAVE THE GARDEN FOR NO REASON;
I KNEW AT THE START OF THE SEASON,
THAT I WOULD SPEAK MY MIND AND LEAVE WITH A MEANING;
MEANING THAT WE ARE ABOVE..HATING THAT I GETS NO LOVE,
FROM NO LOVERS THAT SHRUG TO THE SIGNS OF BEING ABOVE...
BUT...THIS IS JUST WORDS I TYPE OUT, THAT STEALS THE SHINE OF MANY BLOGGERS,
THE MANHOOD I DISPLAY FOR THEM MEN WITHOUT THEIR FATHERS,
GOT DAMN, I WISH I WAS A CARTER TO REPLACE IT WITH A Z AND TELL THE WORLD I GO HARDER....THAN LIL
MISSING THE START JUST A LITTLE,
TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THE BRITTLE;
YEA!...TO BE HONEST I DON'T HAVE A FINISH,
TELLING CENSORSHIPING CRITICS TO MIND THEIR OWN F-IN BUISNESS;
THIS IS NOT REALLY BAD, IF ANYTHING ITS A LOVE LETTER TO DEFEND YOU
IN FACT I LOVE YALL SO MUCH IMA FINISH IT WITH A HUNDRED DOTS OF TO BE CONTINUES............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

G's Interlude part 2

If you are reading this you are a blessing,
As I type I think of you..
As I read I think of you..
As I think of you...I think of more things I can do;
To entertain your minds and to stay true...
If you are reading this you are a blessing...
Thank you-

FLAWS

Penalties to my actions, barely get a reaction, cause I do not really know who I effect or who I'm impacting,

Relaxed but not relaxing, hate myself with a passion, It's like when you get the ball in crunch time and all you think of is passing..

Or fall...friends that I call...are never friends when I call when money's not involved,

And people I continued to love slowly takes a pause;

Its not my fault, I cant even change my past, now girls I seduced in the past entertain their friends talking trash...bout me

History history all of its history, deleted from my search without a single disagree;

Missing me? Missing me? clearly I doubt it matters,

Continuing to piss off like uncontrollable bladders;

Hate the thought that my lonely heart seems to fall apart,

And I hate the fact that I love myself more while sitting in the dark;

It sucks-ess as my mental makes the calls,

As I walk with my head high while exposing all my flaws:

WONDERFUL YOU

Wonderful you...quest soul reaching caliber, soul questing keeper love seeking battler;

Master lust...wonderful you, master touch, 

Master monogamy with your master trust,

Hopeless I, focused guy, modest eye in vision,

Hopes to die, most to lie, with you in decision:

With you and ambition..i know you and ambition,

Will love each other when I am gone with you in my vision;

Crucial contention the tension in your admission,

Beautiful kissing, stuck having me wishing:

Wonderful you...wonderful cool, wonderful fool,

Dripping passion in our wonderful pool;

Wonderful tool...your heart is a wonderful tool,

With your attitude but your wonderfully cruel;

I so so think of true..

When beauty enters my brain and the WONDERFUL YOU

Rigamortis

My...legacy visionation, part of the inivation part of the hesitation, and all of its dedication,
Hardly been define, stupidly on my mind causually blasphemy in this little light of mine,
The rigamortis is so gorgeous and I left it all behind, when my fortunes started scorching,
I just took it all one time, I told myself I got this time, I let myself sparkle the wine, and now the liquids in my soul is inking out all combined;
I climbed the devils silky spine as the cops give me a "piggy" back, and I sparked all pine, and told the trees I wont be comming back;
I'm past all of the height and beyond all of the hype, I told the world I'm kissing heaven and me and Mary is tight....but
Silly I silly I, porcuPINE to the eye and all I can say is I try,
And...i would love to find the gorgeous, greedy with all my courses..this is the metamorphis,
But the beginning to rigamortis

MENACE DISPLAY

Catching feelings uh? They need to understand, I know bosses that move work without a middle man,
They some critics uh? I thought they really fans, I sit in saunas writing mona's so my flow can get a mini tan;
 I need some money, but I dont need riches, trying to have my momma eat good without having to touch dishes,
But goals are just goals and dreams are just wishes, kingPEN having ink swimming with the fishes;
Its buisness!..personally the person in me, is exlusive and thought of as the person to be;
G? o boy, dont mess with ol' boy if they aint in the frontline and believe in decoys,
Grown man, the plastic pen is the only time I see toys,
Victimizing dictionaries and thesaurus we destroy;
Idle as ever, memory is better, than a 70 years old proffesor with a 40 minute lecture;
Refresher? charismatic, and so ecstatic, i dont make platinum, the only time I sparkle I make magic;
But this is just a warmer, movie brother like I'm Warner, my whole life at a cliffhang...the end of a boarder;
Overall, I'm just the worlds menace, and I will continue until the rigamortis of my death sentence;